Pas few weeks ago has been a very bad moment for me, since there’s a lot of thing that is happened 
, and those thing come and go like it never stop. So when I’m alone I ask myself. “Is Death Is The Answer?” “Does there anyone who will sad if I’m dead?” yeah those are STUPID questions I know 
Nope, I’m not sick… but I’m stupid I think 
, Well such questions can be pop out in your mind anywhere anytime… specially when there’s is death around you . It is a mysterious question rite ? since we can’t “literally” prove it
Don’t worry I’m not planning on ending this so-called beautifull life this is just a basic human question when they in glee hehehe
God gave me my own answer , A Dream… where someone that is close to me end up dead because of some stupid accident.
I found out that it is irritating… sad… blur and so dark… when I see my own best friend lie there, cold and lifeless … In my Dream, It’s so sad until I can’t hold on to myself, can’t stand up, and it feel painful. And to make it worst… In my dream I’m the one who know it first, so I’m the one who suppose to tell my other best friend.
Can you imagine how sad it is to tell you own best friends that someone they know, care and love is Dead? They ask me if I am joking? but I just standing there… with stupid face full of tears… so the silence itself close the dream…
It Hurt… to see someone you care about end up dead like that, so that answer my questions… if I’m dead then there’s a lot of people will sad about me and that is a good thing.. Why? that’s the proof they care about me..
Ah and It makes me think, what’s my grave will be if I died tonight ?
Maybe my best friends on SC team Aris, Debut, Jack, Yopi, Ano and the Cupu brothers will come to my grave and bid a nice farewell… with black suit and black glasses (just like the “seize the day” video clip) …. and with some Game Session after that to hide their sadness
Mia… maybe if you not decide to end up your own life back there… you’ll come to my grave with much health… with happy feelings… with someone that will care about you till the end of time..
(I imagine with white vibrant dress… and you look so beautiful…) and you brought white roses for me.. and tell how you live on and move on… I miss you so much little sister… May Angels Lead You In… wish I could be there to stop you my dear Mia… I’m sorry I can’t protect you..you will always be my dearest.
Amel and Rheina… if God never took both of you away from me… both of you’ll come to my grave with your long black hair… beautiful smile… not Rose of course since Rheina is allergic to the those kind of flower… and Amelia will hug Rheina with warm and tight hug… since Rheina is a cry baby so she’ll cry a lot hehe… don’t cry Rheina… let me go
Meia… She’ll stand there look so bright… smiling… with her light and vision, with her charm and attitude… She’ll make me proud.. and put a sun flower on my grave… yeah a sun flower… symbol of that she is now the center of the universe…
Raziel… you’ll stop smoking for that… that’s your promise rite ? to stop smoking if I die before you, unreasonable promise from a unreasonable event… peace for you bro… and you’ll bring a handful of roses.. (just to make fun of Rheina)
Niz, life can be so daunting, tiring and sucks :P but you’ll face everything like u used to be… that’s the attitude I like.. I don’t know if you’ll cry on my grave
Ringgo.. just move on please girl… don’t hurt people and don’t let yourself get hurt, yeah.. people that hurt tend to hurt… just move on… and I think you’ll bring blue tulip? that suit you well
My ITHB Brothers and Sisters.. revitanov and the guys? dunno if they’ll sad..
There’s a lot of people I’ve cure, and I’ve help some people.. and there’s a lot of people too that I’ve hurt and hate me… I’m sorry it’s true.. I’m greatly sorry sooo much sorry.. honest.. In the end I only can define myself as
Someone who will easy tobe you bestfriend, but if you
Oh.. don’t forget! I’ll curse anyone who dare to bring Papaya to my Grave >.<
Yeah that would be a great funeral he he he . . .
Ah.. time to move on, and don’t worry…I’m not planning to Die (at least the death by my own will ?), dunno if God is planning one
Thank you God for giving me the answer,
give me this life,
give me this love and give me them…
the people that support me and be the reason for me to move on…
I love them so much God. protect them…
Thank You So Much
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well, i never thought about those papaya thing. But since you mention it, i think its an interesting idea to put it in your grave. Flower is to normal, yeah papaya is such a great idea write it down
yang perlu dipikirkan adalah .. apa yang kita bawa pada saat setelah kematian ..
wedew… nepuk eru kok ngomong yang mati2 sih….
disebutin lagi 1 1 nama temennya trs dikasih pesen ke mereka…
kek menandakan bakal…..
hmm…. yg pasti kita bakal sedih kalo org terdekat kita ada yg meninggal dan benar katamu itu artinya kita peduli ama orang tersebut
I hate funerals
saya ingin hidup seribu tahun lagi!
ntar kukirim karangan bunga segede 2 meter… plus pepaya. ngakak
wonders why people always wear black clothes in funeral.. since i don’t like someone that i care, passed away. I never prepared for those outfit.. never…
U might want to consider a no-black suits funeral ru…u know…to make it kinda different or special or unique or weird? and to make it less gloomy (tough it meant to be like that)- hmmm…why I sound like arranging ur funeral? Anyway, for sure one thing that make me sad is that I’m gonna loose one of my best virtue friends….I might not cry in front of your grave, but I will cry somewhere in my room with a handsome man hug me tight to calm me down
U WISHED, IN! 
“WOW” (can we?) lanjutannya apaan tu ya…
hehhh… so this is my “beyond rational” lil brother
always have those “hard-core” or “gothic” thoughts… geeze…
btw… noh… aku kasih pe er lagi noh… biar “turun ke bumi” sebentar gituh…
happy homeworking!!!!
hetrixxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx lagiiiiiiiihhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!
eniwei…. huggg
jgn sedih mulu… ntar ga laku2 hehehehe..
*awass… jgn nabok…ntar kasi pepaya
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menurut saya kematian itu adalah awal perjalanan panjang
@Tamago: I’ll have to kill you before I died then
@Tintin: Iya.. 3 amalan itu yaaa >_< @Novi: Wkwkwkw kan kalauuuu
@Venus: So Do I
@Ichanx: Kelamaan seribu Om, mending ideal aja tapi bahagia dan dicinta
@cK: Huuhuhuhu.. I can’t kill a girl… apa ya.. Oya! blog CK itu ada di dibungkam
@Yuan: Pink?!
@Iin: Hhmm I prefer Black or White, Handsome man Iin?……………….. NOT!
@meia: That means the dead-man said WOW, (can a dead man said WOW?)
Hush.. gw emo, gothic ato kalem tetep laku kok PEDE
@carra: Aaaaah PEEEERRRR back to grave
@aprikot: Yep, a looong journey that we need to prepare >_<
gw selalu membayangkan, my funeral akan di iringi lagu ini
@eve: Is that Queen song…
Then mine would be
Ah, story of the year.
Aih…postingan lama terungkap lagi. Aq tetep kasi bunga yg kmaren ah. Sakura sakuraaaa, tutupi eru’s grave sampe full of pink dah.
“Can we??” Hiks, eru eruuuu! Pusing aq ama jalan pikiran eru.
meia and sunflower ?
salam kenal :mrgreen:
OOT, ketularan chika yang sudah dulu absen di atas :p
kok ene lagi eR? bukannya udah tobat?? prasaan link ne pernah lo kasi ke gw dolo.. waktu gw mikir hal yang sama.. (di reedler tapi yah??)
@eve: Yep SOTY
@mimi: Hmm.. kan yang dulu dihapus gw repost grin
kalo mimi ngerti jalan pikiranku, ga asrik lagi downk baca blog ini (kayak yang asyik aja)
@Phi: She is… if you know her, you’ll agree
@det: Lupa dia
@road: Iyo.. yang dulu kan dihapus
Edited old post, eh..? Humm… blue tulip then.. Bring it to my grave if I must go first..
@ice: som seee imouto chan
Maksud CAN WE? itu maksudnya.. Can we said “WOW” on our grave
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